Letting Go

#letgo, #freedom, #justbe, #youarecapable, #trustinyourself

Everyday can be a struggle when we allow outside influences to deter who we truly are. So many times in my life, I have been told "it's too late", "the ship has sailed", "move on", "it's too risky, it isn't safe". These were never my voice but other's voices I allowed to become mine. Instead of living for me, I lived for fear. Fear of not being good enough, fear of failure, fear of being told I told you so, and fear of letting others down when the whole time the only person I was letting down was me. Well, now I say TRY! Try and let go of all the lies. Try and don't stop until you have accomplished your dream. When I was a teenager, I wanted to be a professional soccer player. I wanted to be on the Womens National Soccer Team. Life had another plan. A plan I do not regret because it has shaped me into who I am today. At the age of 17, I had bulimia nervosa. Yes, bulimia nervosa is disgusting and debilitating. I knew even as I struggled early with the disease, I needed to figure it out. I was 26 years old when I finally figured it out. I was trying to purge everything that I was being told was me, that wasn't me. I forgot who I was and was believing everyone else because I thought they knew something I didn't. I stopped dreaming. I stopped wanting and knowing how to be happy. I wanted to go after the dream I had before the disease, but I was told it was too late, to move on. In letting go, we need to have the courage to walk the unknown. I don't have the answer, but I have this deep passion that screams inside me saying I am so much more. I am capable. I need to let go of the voices I hear through my ears and start listening to the voice in my heart because that voice wants what's best for me. Its ok to get lost in life but when we look within and let go our happiness is never truly out of reach. We just need to be brave enough to trust ourselves and let go.